When I think back on my childhood, I feel pretty blessed. I grew up in a nice home with a loving family. I had all I needed and most of what I wanted. And I was generally very healthy and happy. I really am lucky. I have so many wonderful memories of being a little girl… Glimpses of my past that are so vivid it’s like they were just yesterday.
I can remember the exact smell of the air as I would ride my bike up and down our road… The way the bike would rumble a little on the bumpy terrain… My arms outstretched, completely enjoying the moment. As I rode up my street I had to pedal, as there was a slight incline, but on the way back down I could just coast. During this particular memory I’m singing a song from ‘The Little Mermaid’ at the top of my lungs. Without a care in the world.
I also remember countless hours playing with my siblings in the woods behind our house. I loved taking my dog for long walks. And moments of solitude, just sitting on a big rock, deep in the woods, all by myself. I’d pick at the ground with sticks or rocks while making up poetry and reciting it out loud to myself. I played with the ants, and danced to music that only existed in my mind.
Childhood is such a blessing. It really is. I can sit and watch my children now, and see myself in them. Especially Ceci. She reminds me so much of me. A deep thinker and feeler… and one hell of a rockstar! Who cares if there’s no music? This little one has no problem dancing to the beat of her own drum… In public… In an Elsa costume. I just love her!
I had that same badass attitude as a kid. I had real hopes of becoming a pop star. It obviously didn’t pan out, because… well… I can’t sing. I have, however, perfected the craft of lip syncing.
Back when I was in elementary school I had a huge crush on a boy who was not the least bit interested in me. Being that I was like eight, it didn’t really bother me that much, but I had this really ridiculous fantasy about winning over his heart.
Sometimes in the evening, I would play in our sunroom. There were nine windows, and no curtains. At night they made for perfect full length mirrors. I’d put on Mariah Carey’s song, “Someday,” and lip sync like no other. The boy I was crushing on was in my imaginary audience, and obviously fell madly in love with me because of my incredible singing abilities. It was a good time. And I’m sure my neighbors enjoyed the show as well. Ha!
Admittedly, my dreams of becoming a pop star have not been squelched completely. At times I’ll still find myself daydreaming about becoming the next winner of ‘The Voice’ or ‘American Idol.’ Taking the world by storm with my amazing vocals. I wish I was kidding. I’m totally not.
My favorite place to perform is the in front of the bathroom mirror… by myself… with a locked door. With hairbrush in hand, I get down to whatever jam suits my fancy. I know. I’m totally crazy… But you know what? I have so much fun! Letting my inner child out brings me a lot of joy. She’s playful and carefree. She isn’t worried about our worldly problems. She feels confident and beautiful. And… well, she’s me. Besides if it’s at all possible, I’d prefer to stay forever young. Wouldn’t you?
Jay Z featuring Hudson~Forever Young